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[Jun. 23rd, 2009|04:14 pm] |
This past weekend was a lot of fun. Saturday I took Teri to a Teddy Bear picnic followed by water fun at the fountain park. Armed with sunscreen and water it ended up being a fun filled day. Sunday took the kids shopping for the Father's day picnic at the lake. We ended up getting a saw that he wanted and some games. Then went to the grocery store for enough food for an army. Went to the lake got our spot and proceeded to arm myself again with tons of sunscreen and took Teri to the beach. We had a blast making sand castles and practicing her swimming skills. She's been taking swimming lessons this summer and i'm really noticing her confidence level peak. I love spending time with my family and wish i were independently wealthy so i could afford to do fun filled activities every day.
Friday was quite emotional. We went to the funeral and then the reception afterwords. It was strange being at Mr. C's house without him there. Lots and lots of fond memories at his place...good company mostly. I have to say his death really hit me hard. I honestly haven't grieved this much since my grandparents died. I can only say i adored the man and looked up to him on so many different levels. His friendship was very dear...someone said that he was always a joy to see...that pretty well summed it up for me...i never once thought to myself i really don't want to see him or spend time with him. He was so entertaining..real..and never drama filled or judgemental. I can't say enough good things about him.
I've been missing Sarah lately..i'm glad she's on her own and has started a fresh start in florida but certainly miss our chats. Teri misses her something terrible too..its amazing how people can have such an impact on our lives..She's lost so much weight i don't hardly recognize her anymore..so proud of her in so many ways. |
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| Mr. Cuffer |
[Jun. 15th, 2009|01:16 pm] |
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TD called me yesterday afternoon with incredibly sad news. My dear friend Mr. C had passed yesterday morning. I knew in my heart that he must have known something was up when he gave all his toys to TD a couple of mos. back. I kept hoping it wasn't anything bad. He told TD he was just getting too tired to play much anymore...He touched my heart from the moment i met the man. I had just started coming out in the Atlanta public scene and Mr. C took me under his wing. I kept telling TD that if he hadn't already stolen my heart Mr. C would have. He was a great friend..stood behind us when we needed it and always had something profound to say. He was someone I was ALWAYS happy to see and never waivered in his friendship. I will sorely miss him. |
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| You do what??? for a living??? |
[Apr. 8th, 2008|11:49 pm] |
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Those are the words i hear my father saying to me as i tell him what my new job is....so i lied...said i was in sales for a truck accessory company...instead...i have a dream job...where else can i kiss my boss hello...look at porn all day...and possibly get beaten at work when i've had a bad day...yes...that's right...Audrey has a dream job. I have officially accepted a position with Torvea-Achella...as most of you know Scott, TD and i go way back...when i told him i was changing career path's and getting out of the leasing industry he offered me a sales position for his company. He just acquired Achella and they've merged together and need to have a full time sales force. So Susie and i are back together as a team...but this time in the sex industry...huh...never thought i would make such an announcement...sooooo anyone need toys???? |
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| Teri made it!! |
[Mar. 31st, 2008|03:37 am] |
I never really doubted that she would...But i'm really really proud of her. We were told that the judges went crazy over her pics and runway/talent performance. Next step is sending headshots to Pampers and JC Penny's. There are some other things that she's going to be doing too like extra's in movies....stuff like that...they say she needs more things on her resume to be broad minded in what kind of work she does. So we'll do what we need too to get the ball rolling. Let me know if your interested in the link that shows her talent/runway test...There are two of those...and then we have her pics she took. I'll get those who want to look the link ;) I'll post more about things later as they progress!!!! Thanks to all for the kudos and well wishes and those who came out to support her!!!! An extra special thanks to gowains erin for the awesome b-day card she got TD...It's what started her dancing to bad to the bone!!! |
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[Mar. 27th, 2008|10:37 am] |
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This weekend was a blast...all family stuff and nothing kinky though :( Glad all who attended Frolicon had a wonderful time. Maybe next year we'll get to make it...Unfortunately its always on Easter weekend...which for us...isn't very easy. We decorated eggs on fri at a friends and then decorated our own eggs on Sat. night. It was great watching Teri berry have all kinds of fun with it. She's quite the artist!!!!! and a messy one at that!!!!! Saturday day we went for the state finals for Teri's up and coming modeling career...she did absolutely awesome!! We have video and pics that i'll post later. We will find out if she made it on Sunday this week...Even if absolutely nothing comes out of it...she had a great time showing off in front of people and i had fun making her costumes. One thing is for sure...she loves an audience and LOVES the runway!!!! Sunday was big fun with egg hunting, candy eating, and a dinner fit for a king. We had friends and family over for dinner...it was an overall busy but enjoyable weekend. TD is DMing this weekend at 1763 for Atlanta bound...so i think i'll take some time and play with R. I'm entertaining taking him on as a regular play partner. I've known him for years and have always enjoyed his company. We'll see how that pans out...everything is definitely in the early stages...but it will be nice to have someone i can regularly beat on lol...TD also has been invited for an all expense paid trip to New Orleans for a demo in the middle of July. That should be big fun and we'll make it a bit of a trip for the kids as well. It will be fun planning everything since i've been there before...however i've been reminded that things have changed quite a bit ;) It will be great to get away from the house. Things have been stressful with work changing and such...the fact that all expenses are being paid certainly takes any strain off financial burden of doing the trip. We've also applied to vend at Black Rose...so we're hoping we will be able to make that trip as well...I'm keeping my fingers crossed on that one!!! TD has been working ungodly hours...he hasn't been to bed before 2:30am in weeks and works during the day as well...at both jobs. We've managed to stay sweet to one another and supportive even with the lack of actually spending alone quality time. My Mom is doing much better but still has been having some issues. Yesterday she went in for a cat scan because she's been having horrible headaches since her hospital stay. Not sure what to expect from things and i'm just trying to take things one day at a time and not look to far into the future. I know that i'm pissed at her for all the years of abuse she's put on her body. It seems unfair that her choices are now affecting all of us so negatively. Its a hard situation because you want to be sympathetic to her issues...but its hard not to want to lecture lol. |
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| Proud Mother |
[Mar. 14th, 2008|07:42 pm] |
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Last night was the gwinnett munch...Daddy attended that while LT, Teri berry and i went to a model search. Teri was so damn cute...she got straight up on stage..walked her little walk and went down the runway and waved to the judges. You could tell they loved her cause of the way they reacted to her. Needless to say my little red-head made it to the state finals. She goes on the 18th for her portfolio photo's and then the 22nd for the final cuts. She'll be seen by people from huggies, toys r us, parent magazine and more. If she makes it thru this final cut she'll get a year contract with a modeling agency. You might actually see her in a magazine, newspaper ad or on the box of pull-ups!!!! I'm excited for her cause she had so much fun showing off...Even if she doesn't make it...will be fun for her to tell her kids about it. |
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[Feb. 29th, 2008|01:26 am] |
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The last two weeks have been really hard...My Mother ended up in ICU from complications from the flu...She came home on Wed. and is doing better...but we don't know what some of the long term prognosis is. Its really complicated to go into details about everything...but she has heart and lung issues...and treatment for one or the other creates complications for one or the other. Teri has been home with Sarah watching her during the day. Again she is a godsend to us. We are so lucky to have her be a part of our family. We were talking the other day...i never want her to feel like we've taken advantage of her...and she said...we all make sacrifices for our family...no-one isn't making some kind of extra effort to keep things together. i look back on the past couple of years and think damn...we sure have been thru a lot as a family...i guess what doesn't kill us makes us stronger...but damn...i need a break. On a positive note...Teri is doing great with her words and social skills. Its amazing what 45 min. once a week does for this girl!!! Her gymnastics class is so much fun!!! she is just an amazing little girl. We are tackling a little at a time with organizing things in the house. We just about have the upstairs living area done...Now to conquer the garage...oh god the dreaded garage....i don't know whether to throw the shit out...or have a garage sale...a garage sale entails actually keeping it and taking a whole weekend to sell it...but...that's extra money...and might be fun...not sure what to do. I guess we'll vote on it lol...and i get to cast Teri's vote...cause i'm calling it here and now on LJ...i will have witnesses!!~! |
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| REFUSE TO GET SUCKED INTO THE DRAMA |
[Feb. 21st, 2008|01:01 pm] |
For those of you that read my live journal posts will certainly agree that i NEVER air dirty laundry about my friends or problems with friends. In my opinion this medium of attack is highly overused and cowardly. If someone has a problem with my FAMILY have the balls to deal with us directly vs. putting shit all over live journal. I'm not naming any names leelee...but if you have an issue...have the balls to talk directly to TD...I hate i'm forced to reply on this level...but i have no choice but to address this in the same medium. At least this way my words are in black and white for everyone to read so they can't be twisted around to fit your needs. This is my biggest fear I'm prepared to hear..... "I don't understand what I did wrong." and of course her playing the victim, and of course "how dare you pick on me.. " and lying to make it look like she's the one who's right" Again...I'm sorry for the fact i'm forced to stoop to this level for it's not in my character as has been proven thru my numerous posts. I have talked face to face...to no avail. I'm not angry...I'm not mad...I'm just done with this bullshit drama. |
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[Feb. 10th, 2008|05:38 pm] |
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This weekend has FLOWN by. I started off on friday evening after work shopping with Sarah for all of the food for TD's party. We then took it over to C's house for preparations...by the time we got home and settled it was after 10pm...We all went to bed early..TD was exhausted, he had major deadlines and had four total hours sleep in two days. Getting to bed early is a luxury for us so it was really nice. We got up and started early for a Sat. I went to C's house to help with dinner preparations..it was great spending time with her...we don't get to do it often enough and it was a real treat!!! Headed home after that to get ready for dinner . TD was totally surprised by the whole party and it was fun seeing him react to it. The best part of the evening was watching him eat his "special" cake!!! Thanks to the lady who was a real trooper on that one! The evening all in all was Great fun. I'm glad so many folks came to celebrate with him...Made him feel special!!! Today i've been going thru Teri berry's old clothes to cell at consignment...also doing regular chores. I love being able to do it with sarah...it doesn't seem so much like work...cause we get to visit. I'm really really tired and she helps me stay focused!!! TD has another early morning test...so hopefully this will be the last of them...and everything will be a-ok. Send well wishes his way. |
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| more on the subject |
[Jan. 25th, 2008|11:15 am] |
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Self evaluation and discovery can be painful, scary and a slap in the face of reality. As i said in yesterdays post i was feeling a bit jealous and left out when Sarah went out without me. Now...why did i feel this way...i know she loves me...i know she would never hurt my feelings...so why am i jealous that she has "other" friends. It all goes back to my original theory of jealousy...its the fear of being replaced and left out. It dawned on me as i was processing these emotions that i can't be replaced, and OMG with my schedule there probably is no choice but to leave me out. Both TD and Sarah said something to me that made me think really how valuable i am to them...I don't have to worry about being replaced...and i'm actually glad that Sarah has people she can go to and have fun with. Its all goes back to grade school...i dont wanna be the last one picked on the team. I've revisted some of my past relationships and have really given thoughts on how i could have improved on them...been more honest with them and myself...the past cant be changed...and all i can do is try harder in the future. i definitely want to be the best person i can be...and grow and learn from mistakes. i am for sure the first one to admit that i'm not perfect and make tons of mistakes...its just being able to learn from them and move forward that makes the mistakes worth it. |
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| thoughts for the day |
[Jan. 23rd, 2008|03:43 pm] |
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I've been pondering a lot about different aspects of life and personalities and who we are in general. I think that some of my own personal strengths are also some weaknesses. I'm very passionate about people i love...i love them a LOT and try and show it...maybe it comes across as needy...or too clingy...not exactly sure. I came to a hard realization about myself a couple of weeks ago. Sarah had been going out with mutual friends...but i wasn't invited but i'm sure i would have been welcome to go if i wanted. i felt a twinge of jealousy...but quickly got over it...it was like how come i wasn't included with the people i enjoy doing things with...why didn't they want me...and as i thought about it...i was like...i get it...so it was a hard lesson learned...lost some things on the way to realizing this...but i guess that's what life's all about...Live and learn |
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| Thoughts in the night |
[Jan. 22nd, 2008|06:26 pm] |
Its really funny how things come to mind while i'm trying to go to sleep. Last night i was posting to LJ (in my head)and had a lot of thoughts put together. Now as i sit here they will probably just spill out like rambling roodles. I'm trying hard to get past the whole death of Ed...and am making progress...partly because i have my own life and he hasn't been a big part of it for awhile and also because i'm just ignoring it...lol...something i do pretty good. One thing i wanted to share though...The night his brother came into town the first time to try and take care of some of Ed's affairs i had a really vivid dream. Ed was in the airforce in a division called crash and recovery. One of the planes he worked on apparantly had some type of platinum chain in it. Ed acquired a piece of this and made a bracelet out of it. It was something he had for years and it was really special to him. In my dream Ed visited me and we were having a very important conversation about this bracelet. I woke up with the urgent need to call his brother and describe the bracelet to him so he would be sure to get it. The last time i saw Ed he was wearing it so i thought maybe he was still wearing it when he died. His brother didn't remember getting it in his personal effects but would definitely keep a look out for it. A couple of hours later Ed's nephew called...said that he did indeed get the bracelet in his personal effects at the funeral home...BUT...he had thrown it away because the odor was so terrible and he really didn't know what it was. My first reaction was OH NO and started to cry...His nephew said WAIT...there's more...He said that morning he went back to the funeral home after i called...went to the trash can he threw the bracelet away in...and low and behold it was still there...The funeral home hadn't emptied their trash from the day before...I don't know if he visited me in my dream to make sure they got that bracelet...or if it was just plain coincidence...either way...it made me feel good that they recovered a piece of Ed that was important to him. |
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| comes in three's, or four's or five's lol |
[Jan. 9th, 2008|09:05 pm] |
The holiday season was a mixture of bliss and sadness. Teri was so damn cute and was so much fun to be around during the holidays. She is really showing her personality. She absolutely loves the polar express movie and we watched it about a bazillion times. i got her a scratch and sniff book like the one i had as a child and she would get the book out and point to the reindeer everytime she watched the movie. So Christmas was an absolute joy.
i got a call from an old friend of Eds and mine (my ex hubby) on Christmas eve....he was listed as the emergency contact on my exes apartment lease. Apparantly one of the neighbors had noticed an odor coming from his apartment and he hadn't been seen in a week or more coming or going...they had called the police and entered the apartment to find him dead. I wasn't surprised but still in complete shock...after all these years i was the only one to know how to get in touch with family etc. i tried for several days to contact his brother and finally got in touch with him to notify him of Ed's death two days after Christmas. He called me while i was in the waiting room at the hospital for Mom's emergency surgery. She called me the day after Christmas feeling deathly ill throwing up with diareah. She scared the hell out of me and i called 911. They took her in...did tests and found she had to have her gallbladder taken out. Thank god everything went smoothly. There was tons of drama after her surgery with her boyfriend which is a whole other story. Its been taxing going thru all of Ed's things and really quite sad...Can't quite put into words the emotions i'm feeling...all i can say is that TD and sarah have been such a huge support system...His brother came today for the last bit of stuff i recovered...oye...just no words...anyway...thru all that i ended up sick...no wonder...but have recovered from it all with a better outlook on 08...i've done a lot of soul searching and growing...trying to make amends for things and people i've wronged....some long overdue... |
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| Life Update |
[Nov. 29th, 2007|08:57 pm] |
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I meant to post way sooner than i am, but between work and play things have been crazy as usual. Thanksgiving this year was probably one of the best i've ever had. We fed over 20 folks and had a house full. My Mom and her significant came, which remarkably was the only blood family we had to dinner. My brother was supposed to come but drama in his life made it impossible for him. We had friends/family some tried and true old and some new which made for an excellent mix. The food was delicious...we had three turkey's with all the fixin's and i made some home-made dressing this year..thank god for the internet!!!! I made a point to make almost everything from scratch including pumpkin pie. It was awesome...The company was great...the spiked cider made the night a LOT of fun...and i'll drink to that!!!! We started the day around 3 and the last person didn't leave til well after midnight...It was a day to be thankful for.
TD has been working like a dog to take care of us..just in the past two days he's put in 33 hours. Since this is his slow time he took on working as a project engineer for the company i work for. Its only contract work so it won't interfere with his regular job. Sarah and LT are also working thru this weekend. The weekends are full for them and Teri and i get some bonding time.
Things around the house have been going great. I can say i am the most fullfilled i have ever been. My family is complete...even though i would like another rug rat...But...doubt that will happen...so i'm thankful for the two...i have...or should i say four including TD and Sarah lol.
I've gotten a few Hannukah gifts bought along with a few Christmas...This year we got Teri a kitchen set...so that way she can cook with Mommy...she loves to help. I'm making sarah something...can't tell what it is...since eyes will be reading...so missy stay out of my bedroom and don't snoop!!!!! I love Christmas...its truely the time i love to show and give to those that are dear to me. I inevitably always overspend...so this year i'm trying to make a few things and make it more simple and special...finding the time to do that is my biggest challenge.
more on that later......... |
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[Nov. 16th, 2007|09:29 pm] |
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We have been busy as HELL the past couple of months. Everything is great...just a whirlwind of activity. We went to Oregon to see my Dad for 10 days...an absolute ball!!!! My Dad and step Moms adored Teri and she was the princess as usual. TD and i got to spend some lone time taking dirty nasty pictures in the wild blue yonder...with maybe a glimpse or two of folks peeking and learing from a FAR distance. That was so much fun and a good reconnect for us, plus we got some DAMN good pictures. We got back just before Halloween. I made Teri's costume this year...of course she had to be pebbles!!! TD helped me make the pattern...we cut it out and i sewed it...it turned out so damn cute. TD made a bone out of some clay and baked it...looked real!!!! Anyway...we went to publix where they had a bunch of activities for the kids as well as a costume party. When it came time for the costume contest...my sweet girl won 1ST PLACE for best costume!!!! She got a great present and was so excited...she didn't quite understand what for...but it was fun. Work has been really busy...especially trying to juggle two jobs and do them both effectively. Sarah has been a huge assett in that dept as well as TD,,,Thanks to both of them for keeping me afloat. Its a lot of fun however...and i'm sooooo happy...its amazing how things in life work out...More later...miss those i don't get to see often!!!! |
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| long overdue post |
[Aug. 9th, 2007|05:08 pm] |
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I haven't posted on here in forever. So many things have been going on...where to start...where to start...First...we have informally accepted Sarah as part of our family and taken her under our wing in a training capacity. She is such an awesome fit for us. We haven't done anything "formal" yet simply because of time constraints. We've taken everything slow and we all know what's going on...just haven't made it a formality yet. I'm VERY excited...this has been one of the best fits for me. Sarah offers so much and its a joy giving her what she needs as well.
Next...i've started a part time job that at times doesn't feel so part time. My business has been soooo slow that i needed to figure out something to supplement income. I'm enjoying what i'm doing...its a really physical job...helping my ass out. Sarah said she could tell its toned up. I've been working with them for about a mos.
Teri's 2nd birthday is just around the corner and i can't make up my mind what i want to do...Not like me to leave things to the last minute!!! I'm hoping to get an evite out this weekend....We're planning on having the party next weekend. I don't want a huge event but want our friends and family to come. But...with such short notice not sure if i'll get what i want!!!
TD and i have been reconnecting and it feels great. i feel like my life is fullfilled just the way it is. A lot of things that were adding stress have been taken away or worked thru. Its awesome that we work together to make things better for the both of us. |
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[May. 25th, 2007|01:51 pm] |
Life has been pretty good for me lately. I have been doing a lot of things in the yard with TD...For Mothers day they bought me a ton of flowers and bushes that we've been busy planting. I also convinced TD that we needed a big garden this year. He has been so good about getting the ground ready for the plants...He tilled the corner of the back yard...added mulch...added cow poop...and top soil...then he and LT planted the veggies and herbs. I can't wait til things start growing like crazy. He felt very proud and i'm hoping we have a bountiful crop that i can share and freeze.
Teri has been such a ham lately. The more she learns the funnier and cuter she is. The other night i was laying down with her...got up to leave because i thought she was asleep...she started crying..so i of course looked at her and said...WHAT...Mommy was just going to turn the music on again. Crawled back in bed with her...but layed my head next to her instead of on the pillow...so she being the cutey she is handed me her princess pillow. I was like awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww...thank you baby!!!! Then the other night we were eating on the back porch...Teri got finished so we let her down...Toby was eating some leftovers...so she got her pull behind doggie that Auntie Jules got her for Christmas and put his nose in Toby's dish...so he could eat too!!! It was sooooo funny!!!! She's at such a fun age right now. I'm enjoying her so much!!! Susie kept her last night at munch and was saying how good she was!!! She had some friends come over with their kids that are about Teri's age so she had a grand ole time.
Munch was so much fun last night. It was a small crowd but i like that sometimes. We all were laughing and cutting up. I always feel so energized by the people i love!!! Two of my favorite people weren't there...won't name any names...but you know who you are lol...Wish i could have seen you both...i miss you guys so much...
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Hope everyone has a lovely three day weekend!!! |
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[May. 3rd, 2007|02:07 pm] |
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We seem to live in some kind of time warp...That's what all our friends say when they come to our house...Before you know it...HOURS have passed and it just seems like it was minutes. We've had a busy week so far and had a great weekend. We went to Patricks and Denie's wedding...Great time...Teri was in the cutest princess dress...i made a necklace to match it. She was so darn cute. It was great to see everyone...its like a family get together. I had a great time. We then had some folks over for Mohito's. It was a fun time!!!! sarahlove was the life of the party...she is quite cute when she's hammered lol. Yesterday we went to Greggy's baseball game...what fun it was to watch him...and so good to see the family. Teri loved watching them hit the ball!!! Hunter was such a cutie...he was all smiles even though he didn't feel good :( Today sarahlove is here to help me put away mountains of clothes and get my bedroom organized...YAY for sarah...don't know what i would do without her. TD and i have been getting along a LOT better...funny how life changes and stresses come and go. I'm feeling more like myself again...not in the dark place i was for awhile...YAY me!!! |
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[Apr. 25th, 2007|05:53 pm] |
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I had to post about the most awesome birthday party ever!!!! TD went overboard to make sure i had fun. I had never had a birthday party before...well that's not entirely true...the one i had when i was little was spent in my bedroom because i was being selfish and bratty...so i don't have fond memories of that!!! He decided to surprise me with an awesome party...i thought it was going to be at tribble mill park...since a little birdy let that slip...but in fact it was all a ploy to throw me off. We went on a date night, ended up at Dave and Busters...he took me into a buffet room where everyone yelled SURPRISE...boy was i!!!!! i couldn't believe all my friends were there...Very few people couldn't make it...it was such a blast...Thanks to everyone for making the effort to pull it off...and for coming to make my day special. I felt incredibly loved and cared for. My Mom kept Teri berry and made two delicious cakes...i really really felt special!!!! Thank you!!!! |
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[Apr. 17th, 2007|01:46 pm] |
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Its been a long time since i've posted here. I was catching a lot of flack for spending too much time on LJ so i went to the extreme and cut it off completely. Found it wasn't in my best interest to do that so i'm back. Life has had its challenges lately...its getting better...but damn i hate the rough patches. i absolutely hate the person i become when i'm scared and injured. i turn into this complete cold ass bitch who tries to protect herself from any kind of pain by creating it. i'm really really working on NOT doing that. Anyway...i've been doing things that make me happy...spending time with friends and family...going to events that "i" want to go too...and i've taken a beading class and have started making some beautiful jewelry. i am going to put some things on TD's website...have made a couple of lifestyle pieces...and feel like i could really do good with some everyday collars. Anyway...that's my passion right now...its a bit difficult to do with Teri berry...she LOVES playing with the beads and dumping them on the floor and then picking em back up...then dump again. I'll post more later...just wanted to get back out here. |
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